July 14, 2008
Wow, new tool for procrastination
Well, this blogging thing has never really come naturally to me. Perhaps I will start by introducing myself, 10 points to start off, with more added if I feel like it.
1. My name is Clare and I am half Japanese. However, as most people point out, I don’t look it. I am still contemplating whether this is a good thing or not, but lean towards ‘not’. This is mostly because every time I visit Japan I get treated as a foreigner and will never be treated otherwise. People in japan are mostly patronising when I speak Japanese well or talk about me when I am in earshot, assuming I can’t speak Japanese, because of the way I look.
2. Life never really seems to be going right. When things do go right, something tends to get in the way, whether it is yet another sudden death or just unpleasantness. Other people seem so very happy, or at least content or satisfied with what they have. Which lead sme to the third point
3. The IB (International Baccalaureate) Put me in a very dark, very unpleasant place. Now I see a psychologist who is convinced all my problems are caused by school, and that is what must be fixed. This irritates me. I am now a SACEr which makes me much happier than I was before, at least school-wise.
4. I believe that life I based on a number of assumptions, though these differ from person to person. These assumptions form the basis of our lives and beliefs and existence. These vary from ‘what I perceive is true’ to ‘I am’ to ‘I like pink’ (or not)
5. I often try things on in clothing stores and say ‘I don’t like it’ when I am really thinking ‘I don’t like me’
6. I have 4 half brothers and sisters. I am the child of both my parents’ second marriages. This has led to 8 nieces and nephews, one of whom is 2 years older than me. Nonsensical, I know. I am closest to my niece Ruby, who I possibly love more than either of my parents. There are other family issues that I do not care to divulge to anyone, especially myself. I also have a collection of cousins, second cousins, great aunts and other people vaguely related to me.
7. Hiding behind pretentious English has protected me in the past, so there will be a continuous use of such language, especially when I am angry on msn.
8. I watch far too much TV. British Crime drama is my reason for living sometimes.
9. I love my friends dearly, for they are the most genuine people I have ever met. A tendency to be clingy has not always worked in my favour, whoops.
10. Singing will hopefully lead me to wonderful things, namely performing on stage in musicals and operas. Dancing makes more sense than anything else, I especially love salsa.
This is all, for now.
